Showing posts with label mom's love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label mom's love. Show all posts

Sunday, May 25, 2014

Hope

I took one of those silly Facebook surveys and it came back and told me my happy word is hope:

"You refuse to give up on anyone, including yourself. You see the best in others. You think happiness should be shared. You spread your message of optimism as much as possible. You will keep believing when everyone else has stopped. You think good will always prevail in the end. You believe if we trusted each other more, the world would be a better place. All we need is a little hope."

Funny how these messages present themselves to me during times when I'm feeling less hopeful. The enabler in Brent's life is showing signs of running out of hope for the life she imagined she could have with him.  This has me wondering what's next for him?  

He had 3 sober months once and got his 3 month coin. I still carry it with me in my wallet as a symbol of hope to remind me he can do it, has done it, even if it was only 3 months. It's Memorial Day weekend and while many celebrate those who served our country I am celebrating the hope I have for my son who is still struggling to overcome his addiction and my hope that someday I will get my funny, sweet and loving son back.








Monday, February 17, 2014

30 Days

He is 30 days clean and sober.  Today he is scheduled to move into Sober Living.  He is strong, happy and positive he's ready to put recovery first now.   These were all such great gifts!  I would give anything to right the wrongs in his life. I wish I was the job he needs to be self sufficient, the car he needs to drive himself to work, the food and shelter he needs to be safe and sheltered, the cure for his addiction, the abundance of love in his heart so that he would not feel sadness or fear.  I know I can't be or do any of those things for him, but I can be his mom who will love him through it.  I wonder if he knows how often I think of him throughout my day and send him positive thoughts as if I have magical powers.  I'm going to focus on the gifts I have today and try not to worry about the future too much.

Serenity isn't a matter of chance; it's a matter of choice....