Self Care

I continue to look for ways to cope with the affects that my son's drug addiction has on me and our family.  Today, I decided to add blogging to my list of self-care options.  I keep searching for the one thing that is going to keep me sane!  I even got a tattoo of a lotus flower with the Serenity symbol as a daily reminder that I cannot control my son's addiction.   I attend Al-Anon meetings pretty regularly and they do help, but the one thing I find I'm missing is the cross talk we had when we were attending family group with Brent.  God, how I had such hope for Brent's recovery last year!  For a period of time, I had my funny and loving son back.  I had never felt closer to him when we attended the family group meetings each week.  He and I were able to open up to one another like never before and I actually thought the worst was over.  That's the game addiction plays on us I guess.  In September I saw him slipping away again.    I thought maybe blogging about living with my son's addiction might be a good replacement for the cross talk we don't do in the Al-Anon meetings.  With the hope that others would see my blog and comment.  For now, while I continue to wait for Brent to come back to us I will work on my own self-care plan by reading, going to the gym, crying, my work, my family, my friends, and trying to enjoy the good in my life as best I can.  I haven't worked the steps nor do I have a sponsor...maybe that should be next in my action plan