New Hope

Today I'm feeling very hopeful once again.  Jack and I flew to CA to assist Brent in his transition back into rehab for another round of inpatient treatment. The first visit was a bit stressful as he was in detox.  His coloring was bad and so was his attitude.  Our 2nd and 3rd visit with him he was much better and more positive and seemed ready to get sober.  It occurred to Jack and I that part of Brent's cycle of addiction was to leave one location to another as a way to avoid dealing with consequences.  He's been doing that since he was a teenager. Whenever he became too much for his dad to deal with he would get shipped off to us and just when we'd get him back on track and headed in the right direction his dad would lure him back.  Having seen some success in his recovery program last year then going back to CA where he relapsed again we feel like he needs to stay in CA for his recovery work this time.  We are hoping this is a small change on our part to help that will have a big positive impact.  Here is where all his triggers are and he needs to know how to deal with those triggers and face the wreckage he's caused and deal with the consequences of his actions and choices.  He has 30 days in inpatient and will be given the opportunity to go into a residential sober living house in CA.  I'm so relieved at the moment and so happy that this weekend leaves me with a memory of his smiling face and love I felt towards us.  Today at least, I am not in my insanity box.