Momma Bear

Brent has been clean and sober for a week!  He has sounded so good on the phone until today.  Reports from his counselor are that he is participating in group and doing the hard work.  I can tell he's feeling better because he wants new jeans LOL!  I tease him about being such a metro dude.   Today when he called I could hear the sadness in his voice.  He had a visit from his aunt Ellen.  She decided today was the day to tell him about the many horrible things she thought about him.  I felt so sad for hiim as I know he's always cared for her, but said he knows he caused it.   Drug addiction creates such wreckage in the addict's life.  I love my son so much but also hate the addiction too.  I don't know why today was the day Ellen felt the need to confront Brent, but I can say that I  really wanted to punch her in the face.   All I could think was  "you bitch!"  Does the bitch not care that two weeks ago Brent wanted to die?????  Nooooo...she only cares that he took something from her.   Well, I'm mad that drugs took my beautiful son!  All I could do was say the Serenity Prayer silently until my anger and need to lash out at her passed.  She's a fool, Brent's dad is a bigger fool.  I guess that's on me as our kids don't get a say in who their family is right?    3 more weeks of rehab....god  I hope he stays strong and makes it this time.